In my grieving process, I've been reading a lot of books in search of healing for my shattered heart. I am just beginning to process Kayla's loss as my brain physically shut down the moment we found her lifeless body in her bed the morning of April 9th. We tried to resuscitate her to no avail which is by far the hardest thing I've had to face in my life. I spent the first couple of months after her death in bed sleeping most of every day away as I just couldn't face my new reality. I had pneumonia when Kayla died and was really struggling to breathe after staying in bed for so long. I finally decided to get up and start taking care of myself. Over the last few months I have gotten up every morning and have given myself Grace and permission to care for my health. As the months have passed, I feel a sense of small improvements in my thinking returning. I think it will be a long time until my body fully recovers from the blow of losing my sweet Kayla.
Today I picked up Grief One Day at a time by Alan D. Wolfelt, Ph.D. and the reading for today really spoke to me. "When my soulmate dies, the only way to heal my grieving soul is with mourning that is as large as my love." I am learning to mourn heroically.
Today I picked up Grief One Day at a time by Alan D. Wolfelt, Ph.D. and the reading for today really spoke to me. "When my soulmate dies, the only way to heal my grieving soul is with mourning that is as large as my love." I am learning to mourn heroically.
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You have already begun the healing process, by finding ways to help others. There is no way to speed it up. It just takes time. In the meantime, you are helping others, as you take each step. Ask for help, though, when you want it! WE are eager to help!
Fondly,
Marcia
You have already begun the healing, by sharing it with others. You gave some families the awareness that a loving church can help you nurture a special needs child, and support parents who are challenged. You have shown educators that special needs children CAN achieve, and encouraged parents to ask for special services. You have encouraged Kayla's peers to learn ways to be supportive and helpful. You have given the MD community motivation to strive, even when the challenge it great! Thank you, Lisa.
Marcia N. Burns
My wife and I just found out our little girl, Kierlyn, tested positive for Congenital DM1. It's been a real struggle for me but reading your blog made me so happy. It also made me sad and scared, i am so sorry for your loss, but thank you for sharing in your journey. It gives me hope.
My wife and I just found out our little girl, Kierlyn, tested positive for Congenital DM1. It's been a real struggle for me but reading your blog made me so happy. It also made me sad and scared, i am so sorry for your loss, but thank you for sharing in your journey. It gives me hope.
I just learned about Kayla and her experiences. She is such a amazing person.
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